Ok ladies. I am seriously freaking out.
Let me back up a bit.
Remember the new year's resolutions I set earlier this year? If not, you can read here, in the Year of Dana. One of them was to go on a vacation with my sisters. No kids. No husbands. Well, that's happening next week....and I'm totally excited.
We're going to Eureka Springs for 4 days. Spa, wine tasting, spelunking, and shopping. I can't wait.
A few days ago I called the wonderful Suchness Spa and spoke to the owner, Caterena. I told her I was a busy mother of 4 young children and wanted the ultimate spa experience. She suggested the Ocean Essence Cocoon with chakra work and a massage. Sounds amazing.
Why am I freaking out?
At the end of our conversation I say, "Thank you Catarena for all your help. Is there anything I should do or avoid before coming in?"
"I'm so glad you asked," she replied. "No alcohol and no coffee before you come in."
Fine. No problem, but better schedule on first day of vacation! hee, hee.
Then she asked, "Do you go to the spa a lot?"
Ummmm. No. I have 4 kids.
"Well, you're more than welcome to wear a bikini if you are uncomfortable in the nude....a g-string and topless would be best."
Ahhhhh! What?! I don't even own a bikini!!
And as for the g-strings....well, they have been replaced by boy short panties.
Look at the belly....and those stretch marks! I'm very blessed to have 4 healthy beautiful children, but man did they do a number on my body. And nursing 4 kids....lets just say I won't be posing for Sports Illistrated anytime soon.
I thought this whole "body image" issue was long gone with my 20's. I guess sitting naked in front of stangers will bring it all up again. *sigh*
Most of you are probably thinking, "Oh whah. You get to go to a spa and be pampered."
Seriously, this is HUGE for me. Taking time away from my family and the money. I feel guilty. Hey, that's what I'm working on right? This is, after all, The Year of Dana!